In case anyone needs a reminder that the behind-the-scenes is usually a mess...
...okay well yeah, that's just The Baby being adorable. Although, as you can see below, her new project is climbing up the cabinets, so.
...and yeah I'm not proud of this, but it happens.
In my defense, Joon is constantly uprooting my rug like this. So this one's not really my fault.
She lies in wait to attack your ankles as you walk past.
Don't worry, I deep cleaned my apartment just a few days ago (I do about every other week), so it doesn't look quite so bad anymore...just don't ever forget, someone's life may look pretty to an outsider, but it probably looks like this in reality: cluttered and messy. At least I don't have roommates to annoy with this anymore ;)
One of my best friends here in Tempe (Rachel) (now I have two bests named Rachel, it's fine) is also Jewish, so we decided to ring in the new year with apple pie! Fortunately for me, Rachel is great with baking. I am hoping that I will begin absorbing some of her domesticity by osmosis.
We decided to forgo homemade pie crust, but we did make an oatmeal crumble! It was mostly Rachel, I really can hardly take credit for it. Although I did slice most of the apples.
It turned out beautifully, deliciously perfect.
And we couldn't forget apples and honey for a sweet new year, oh no I wouldn't let her forget. I kept asking for apples and honey all evening until finally we had some. And we got Arijana to try it too! Win!
So thankful to have her (Rachel, I love ya) so we can celebrate holidays together and jump around her kitchen singing in Hebrew. I have a good feeling about this year already, I really do. L'shana Tova!
P.S. Apple pie was one of my first blog posts ever! I don't know what's worse, the fact that I used my iPhone for all of the photos in this post (WHY do I keep leaving my camera at home?!), or the shitty photos in that old post...
Last night I played in Gammage Auditorium for the first time, for my first concert at ASU. Oh man, it was so fun! We played a couple of pieces with choir, I played principal on two pieces (not as cool as it sounds--don't get too hyped over it), and we finished it off with Til Eulenspiegel's Merry Pranks (I played 2nd) (p.s. my friend Celeste killed it on Eb clarinet). I have very fond memories of learning these clarinet excerpts for class with Dr. Kowalsky back in my junior year of college, it was such a great experience getting to play it in orchestra!
Anyway, I had such a blast, can you tell? My first orchestra concert since last Fall with UPO at Florida State! Although I will always miss playing with those people and Dr. J, last night's concert was a nice reminder as to why I'm here; I love playing in orchestra. It's the best. What a way to start the new year, as Rosh Hashanah starts tonight!
L'Shana Tova to my Jewish friends, and happy practicing to my music friends ;)
This weekend consisted of a spur of the moment lady date with Rachel, going out for a friend's birthday, Joonbug snuggles (of course), thrifting with Kristi (who is so hilarious--I had to keep her from buying that leotard, in case you were wondering), seeing Kinky Boots at ASU Gammage Auditorium with two of my favorite people (SO FAB), and Dr. Spring's solo recital (that featured Dr. Gardner, too--they're both playing two clarinets in this photo, it's fine).
Even if I am feeling a bit under the weather, this weekend was so good.
I don't think I've ever been smiling in every picture of me in a single blog post. It's a milestone! A sign, if you will. My face hurts from smiling so much.
I have an old Polaroid camera that was my Mom's that they no longer make film for. Those are the top ones, the more square photos. About three years ago, I got a newer Polaroid camera, and even though I feel like people always judge me for using it, I love that little thing. The photos are a little smaller than playing cards, thinner than the original Polaroid photos.
I'm currently out of film, but some of my favorite old polaroids are on display in my bedroom. I picked out my faves of the faves to share here...just for fun because I can because it's my blog y'all.
From top to bottom, right to left:
- Roxy and Bec. MIDDLE SCHOOL BEC!
- A project Bec did in middle school, and it was my favorite poster ever
- Dad and me
- A weekend in Cocoa Beach in Bec's travel softball days
- Hanging out at my apartment...but before I lived there
- Leah's visit/audition weekend at FSU this past Spring
- Becca Boo in Hyde Park, literally the day after I got this Polaroid camera
- Puppy roommate
- Summer in Savannah
- Libby, the best dog to ever exist
I remember these moments so clearly, it's almost creepy. Especially since I generally have a terrible memory. Ahhhhh, life is a time. I have some really old Polaroids that I'll hopefully share sometime, although currently they're still in Florida...I'm talking high school years. Solid gold.
Sleepy mornings staying in bed too long, only getting up because you. need. coffee.
Getting donuts on a whim.
Snuggles from a kitten who has played herself OUT.
A look and a smile across a crowded table.
A reminder that someone is thinking of you.
FaceTiming with people far away, feeling like you never left.
Blushing. Or rather, having a reason to blush.
Laughing until your stomach hurts.
The funny thing about making friends as an "adult" is that you're already a fully formed person. You're not doing a ton of growing; well, at least, I'm not. Most people my age know and like who they are, and it seems easier to form comfortable and true friendships when you're already self-aware. The little group I've become a part of here in Tempe is so fun. They make me smile and laugh until my face hurts. We have great conversations about feelings and heartbreak and our lives. And I'm already comfortable enough to sing in the car with them ;)
I thought I was really happy before, and I was happy, but not like this. I maintain that my people, coast to coast, are the best people: my people in Florida (STILL! They're still being the best people I know!!!), and now my people in Tempe. I haven't felt such love and fulfillment in my life in such a long time, without even realizing it. From school (I love you FSU, I really do, but I was so burnt out for so long), from my past relationships, to just living in Florida, I really think this move to Arizona was a huge deal for my general well-being. I am just so...happy. And now, all the struggle almost makes sense. Well maybe not all of it, but a lot of it.
My bloggy pal Annie said that one day I would wake up on the other side of the sadness and think "Phew. That was necessary." AND SHE WAS RIGHT! (Thanks, Annie.) I literally had that moment, and it feels so, SO good.
These are just a few of the iPhone snaps that are making me smile so much these days. (Honestly I laugh EVERY TIME I see that one of Joon)
I bought myself a handsome little ukulele with Amazon rewards money last week. So far what I've learned is that I don't understand string instruments at all. We're off to a great start!
I've been letting it get acclimated to Arizona for a few days (I was pretty busy over the weekend anyway...and every day, really...) so I'm hoping that'll help with the tuning, which is prettttty bad right now. But I'll figure it out. I'm excited!...and also so confused.
It's been busy and it's only going to get busier and I'm just way happy these days. Have I said that already? Yes? Oh well.
Some things of note, or not, I don't know:
- Making friends is not nearly as difficult as I expected it to be, and I'm actually having a great time doing it.
- My cat is being a crazy bitch these days; she has so much energy so she's slowly destroying my apartment.
- I hurt my arm a little over a week ago by running into a skateboarder while riding my bike to school and it STILL HURTS.
- I'm playing some awesome music this semester and I'm so excited.
- Something about Arizona is making my skin really angry?
- I never thought I'd be excited to see that the weather forecast for next week has the highs only in the 90s. Only, she says. I know.
- I bought a ukulele today. (send your ukulele knowledge my way, friends!!)
But in all seriousness I need to do something that will let me use my real camera. It's been too long. Any suggestions?